Looking for book where h is in love with her best friend H. I believe the H is engaged to be married to another woman. h finally tells H that she loves him during H's going away party at a bar. They get into to an argument outside and the H leaves h alone. h ends up getting raped by the H's brother. Years later the H comes back, he never knew about the rape. The mutual friends have keep the secret of the rape and that the h gave birth to the brother's baby. I think the brother died the night he raped the h and or before she gave birth.